five thousand shades of blue
Wednesday, June 06, 2001
In the midst of Nine Things excitement I forgot to mention that one of Andra's grandmothers passed away two days ago. It didn't really come as a big surprise, since she was not in good health. I think I was more distraught with being given the responsibility of telling Andra, since I wasn't really sure how she was going to react. I knew that she knew intellectually that Grandma Sarah didn't have much time left, but when faced with the reality of death one never can predict the reaction. I was a bit resentful at first of being given the responsibility, but after realizing that she really
had already made her peace (she'd gotten to see her grandma just a month ago), I understood why Andra's mom had felt it was all right to have me tell her. They had
all expected it.
This has kind of sent me into a funk about my family and my grandparents. My mother's father died when I was three, and I only know him through pictures really. I haven't seen my grandparents since 1998, and my remaining grandfather is not in the best shape (Alzheimer's). I really wish I could go home; the terrible (?) thing is that I have but I don't have the , and don't have the spare cash it'd take to do a trip like that. I know, I know, I need to make time. This is important. Sigh.
is
this just not enough…?
